Aimee Carter

“I don't want to be the person who tries to force you to feel something you don't.”

“I love you. We all do, even if some of us aren't very good at showing it sometimes.”

“Being brave doesn't mean never being afraid, you know. It means going for it anyway because you know it's the right thing to do.”

“You’ll never lose me,” I said, my voice breaking.“Promise.” His gaze searched mine as he ran his fingertip up my spine.“I promise.” I closed the minuscule gap between us once more, capturing his lips and trying to show him how much I meant it. “I love you. I love our family. I love our life together, and I can’t wait for the day when we’re back home, just the three of us, and this whole war is over. I swear to you that will happen. That will be our future.”He cradled the back of my head, his palm searing against my skin. “I have waited an eternity for this love. I’m not going to let anyone, Titan or not, take it from us.”“Promise?” I said, and this time it was Henry’s turn to kiss me.“I promise.”“Then do me a favor.”“Anything.”I shifted onto my back, rolling him with me. His body pressed against mine in all the right places, and I lifted my head high enough to rest my forehead against his. “Live this love now,” I whispered. “And never stop.”

“You are my life.” Though his words were barely a whisper, they seemed to echo from somewhere deep within him, enveloping my body and infusing me with something unshakable. “There is nothing I would not do to make you happy. Before I met you, my world was a string of days that were gray and empty. I had nothing to look forward to, and I cannot tell you what it was like, facing down eternity alone. Every day I wished for you. Every day I held on in hopes that eventually we would meet. And when I finally found you...”He leaned in and kissed me again, astenderly as before. His hand slid underneath my shirt, splaying across my stomach, but the touch wasn’t sexual. It was as if he were trying to memorize me, just as I was trying to memorize him.“I have existed for more eons than I remember. I have seen the sun rise and fall so many times that the days lost all meaning. For so long, they passed me by in a blur. But that night we met by the river—the night you gave up yourself in order to save a virtual stranger—my heart began to beat again.”He took my hand and pressed it against his chest, and there it was—thump thump, thump thump, strong and beautiful. I would’ve given anything to keep his heart beating. The black abyss that had become my world in those hours I’d thought he was dead had faded, but it was a scar I would always bear. I couldn’t go back to that. Even if I had Milo, I would never have another Henry.”

“I love you so much,” I said, closing the distance between us and wrapping myself around him. “No matter what happens, no matter how this war turns out—I love you, forever and always.”

“I want him back, Henry. I want us to be a family.”“We are a family.” He kissed my forehead, my cheek, and finally brushed his lips against mine. “We cannot pretend it has been easy, but we love each other unconditionally, and that is what matters. We will get him back. I swear it.”My chin trembled. “How?”“I do not know yet, but I will find a way. We will find a way together.”I kissed him back, not caring if he could taste my tears.”

“You really need to get over your martyr complex. One of these days it’s going to get you killed.”

“James chuckled. “You’re the worst goddess I’ve ever met.”“Calliope’s the worst goddess you’ve ever met. I’m just the most incompetent.”

“You were thinking you had a chance to do what you always do,” said James with kindness I didn’t deserve. “You were going to give yourself up in order to save the people you love. It’s a bit of a problem with you, you know.”

“He ran his fingers through my hair, his touch so gentle that it felt like a warm summer breeze. “All I want is you.”I shivered. Milo’s lips parted in his sleep, and he made an adorable suckling motion. “All I want is to be a family. A real, live family, together and safe from all of this.”“We will be,” he promised. “I will make sure of it.” I leaned against him and wrapped my arm around his waist, his silk shirt tickling the inside of my wrist. How long would it be before we got to spend time together like this again?”

“And I wasn’t going to give up just because they insisted there was no point in trying. Even if it meant marching straight up to Cronus and giving him everything, I would really do it if it meant Henry might live.”

“Another pair of hands joined us, but I was so completely submerged into myself that I might as well have closed my eyes and disappeared in the dark. In here, nothing could touch me. In here, Henry was everywhere. In here, it was winter again, and we curled up together underneath the down comforter in the Underworld as the hours passed by. His chest was warm under my palm, and his heart beat against my fingers, steady and eternal. In here, no one died.”

“I see the sunrise now," he said. "Because of you, the days have color. Eternity has meaning once more. You found every broken piece of me and put me back together, even though I hurt you too many times for me to deserve it. You are the glue that holds me together. If I lose you, it will be the end of me. The end of everything good in this world.”

“Isn't that what friends do?" It hurt to hear the uncertainty in his voice. "You're my friend Kate, and you're miserable. What could possibly be more important than taking care of you?”

“I’ve never felt like this for anyone. And I’m not really sure what falling in love feels like, but I think—I know I have. With you.”

“The afterlife is whatever a soul wishes or believes it to be.”

“So while gods and goddesses are mysteriously dying for reasons the council can’t possibly be sure of, you’re going to listen to Zeus for the first time in your life.”“He’d track me down the instant he knew I was gone. You know that.”“Unless…” Her fingers danced over the parchment, an inch from my knee. “Someone kind,generous, thoughtful and extremely beautiful covered for you.”I raised an eyebrow. “Do you think someone like that actually exists?” She punched me in the arm.”

“What if he really has given up? What am I supposed to do ten?Keep trying until you have no more chances left. And even then keep going.”

“—No te estoy dejando por él. No te estoy dejando por nadie, y jamás me habré ido buscando algo mejor. Tú eres mi algo mejor, y desearía, que yo fuese el tuyo también.”

“-No necesitas gastar cada momento del día protegiéndome ahora. Se supone que debo ser tu compañera, no tu carga, y si eso es todo lo que voy a ser para ti, entonces no quiero estar aquí nunca más. Quiero que me ames. Quiero ansiar venir aquí cada otoño. Quiero que el invierno sea mi estación favorita porque puedo pasarla contigo. Así que dime si eso va a suceder, Henry. Dime que las cosas van a mejorar, que no vas a pensar en Perséfone cada vez que me toques. Dime que vas a amarme tanto como la amas a ella, y que no voy a pasar el resto de mi eternidad estancada en la comparaciónde los recuerdos de mi hermana.-Silencio.-Por favor,-le susurré.-Te lo ruego. Si tú no lo haces...Si tú no lo haces, me voy a ir. Y no quiero decir solo por el verano. Voy a dejar el Inframundo, y no voy a volver.-”

“Había algo extraño sobre la manera que dijo mi nombre, pero lo hice a un lado. Fuera lo que fuera, sin duda tenía algo que ver con Perséfone, y mientras más pensaba sobre ella, más dolía todo. Después del viaje a través del Inframundo, quería una sola tarde donde no tuviera que sentirme como la segunda mejor. Estaba dispuesta a esperar por Henry como él había esperado por mí, pero eso no significaba que el tiempo entre ahora y cuando estuviera listo para amarme no sería doloroso.”

“—No importa —dijo Perséfone—. Él no tenía que hacerlo. Mientras goberné con él sólo hicimos unas pocas excepciones, e incluso entonces había tantas advertencias que en realidad nadie llegaba de nuevo a la superficie. Violó todo lo que lo representaba desde el amanecer de la humanidad para salvar tu vida.”

“Incluso sin tratarlo, Perséfone contaminó cada faceta de mi vida y cada persona a la que amaba. Como una hermana más joven, cuyas únicas cosas eran heredadas, todo lo que tenia olía a ella, y nada alguna vez iba a hacer que el olor desapareciera.”

“Persephone.”Henry’s voice was barely louder than a whisper, but even in the buzz of the foyer, it cut through me. He stood in the hallway, his arms covered in blood and his clothing torn, but like he’d done in the cave, he stared past me and focused on Persephone instead. It was as if none of the past few weeks had happened. As if none of the past thousand years had happened.”

“Calliope grabbed the loose end of his fog-infused chains and whipped it across his face. I gasped and struggled against her, but she held on to me with inhuman strength.A bright red pattern blossomed across Henry’s cheek, and at last he shook his head and came to. He touched his face and winced, and I exhaled. He was in there after all.Instead of looking at me, however, his gaze focused on something behind me, and his jaw went slack. “Persephone?”I would have rather been sliced open by Cronus than experience the gut-wrenching pain that came with hearing her name before mine.”

“He’s only with me because I’m your sister,” I said hotly.“Diana—Demeter, she’s my mother. She decided to have me in a last-ditch effort to save Henry because she felt so damn guilty for what you did to him, and she didn’t want to be responsible for him fading. He married me because he couldn’t have you, and I was the next best thing. Thanks for rubbing my nose in it.”

“Live this love now," I whispered. "And never stop.”

“When I wake up and the first thing I see is his face, I know it's going to be a great day.”

“It takes loneliness in oneself to recognize it in another.”

“happiness is a choice, but so is misery. Choose wisely.”

“You know that Kate called Walter a heartless bastard?""And an asshole. I am quite proud.”

“It hurts being the one who loves more”

“You never had to fight for me to begin with. I am yours and have been from the moment I saw you”

“♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥”

“Henry vio como desaparecían entre los árboles, y tan pronto como ya no pudo ver su pelo oscuro, cerró los ojos. Estos seis meses eran de ella para hacer lo que ella quisiera; no tenía ni voz ni voto sobre ellos, y tenía que respetarlo que sin importa lo mucho que le doliera verla marcharse con James.En menos de medio año, volvería a ser suya, y se aseguraría de recordarle por qué se había casado con él en primer lugar. Hasta entonces, la espina que James había clavado en su corazón sólo podía hacerlo más profundamente, pero como había hecho durante los últimos miles de años, tendría que soportarlo.Por Kate. Por sus vidas juntos. Y porque no tenía otra opción.-Henry-”

“Sadness doesn't equal weakness, sweetheart. If anything, it shows the love you have inside of you, and nothing stronger in this world exists.”

“I don't need to be ancient to be worth something.”

“Love is the way I feel for you, the way you fill something inside me whenever you so much as walk into the same room. Sometimes love is quite, lingering in the background until you least expect it. But love it always there for you”

“In her he saw possibility. In her he saw the future. And when she was ready for it, he would be, too”

“If it's healed, then why does it still hurt?" I said, panicked.What if the pain never went away? How was I supposed to live with that? Had Henry experienced the same thing in his chest? How could he have possibly fought of that thing again if he had?"Because there is no power in the world that can take away the pain until it is ready to leave." said Theo”

“I figured Henry might smite me if I went through your underwear.”

“You don’t need to spend every waking moment protecting me now. I’m supposed to be your partner, not your burden, and if that’s all I’m ever going to be toyou, then I don’t want to be here anymore. I want you to love me. I want to look forward to coming here every fall. I want winter to be my favorite season becauseI get to spend it with you. So tell me that’s going to happen, Henry. Tell me things are going to be better, that you’re not going to think of Persephone every timeyou touch me. Tell me that you’re going to love me as much as you love her, and that I won’t spend the rest of eternity paling in comparison to your memories ofmy sister.”

“I'm not afraid of you." And to demonstrate that point, I leaned forward and kissed like he'd kissed me in the drawing room, careful not to spill my drink. Me heart pounded in my chest as I waited for him to respond, hoping he wouldn't pull away and declare everything that had happened a mistake.”

“But could you just... stay for tonight?”

“Can I try something?" I said. "If you dont' like it, I'll stop.”

“This is the gate between the living and the dead", he said. "You are still living. The others on the grounds died very long time ago."A chill ran through me. "And you?""Me?" The corner of his mouth twitched. "I rule the dead. I am not one of them”

“But if this works-if I pass, I need to know that when you look at me, you're going to see me, not just her replacement. That there is more in this future for me than standing in the shadows while you wallow the rest of your existence away.”

“Did you know,” he said, his breath warm on my cheek, “that that is the first time anyone has ever told me they loved me?” Startled, I did the only thing I could think of—I kissed him again. “You’d better get used to hearing it more often, because I plan on saying it to you an awful lot.”

“I’m not, even if you think I am. But no matter what this started out as…an accident, fate, whatever—I’m glad you found me that night. Not because of what happened, but because of now. Because I get to be here with you. And I’m scared, too, but—but thank you for telling me today. Thank you for trusting me with that. I’ve never…” I pressed my lips together, trying to find the right words. “I’ve never felt like this for anyone. And I’m not really sure what falling in love feels like, but I think—I know I have. With you.”