Christopher Gutierrez

“I want them to lose themselves with me. In me. I kiss them like my only job is to make them feel that this is worth their time. So they leave with a smile, not a regret.I want them to smile and believe it because I know how good the exhale feels. The feeling that makes you re-think your future that I could one day be a father to your children. I want you to believe that even if it's not true. Because despite my flaws and shortcomings, genetics and history, I want you to leave with an ideal. A dream of what could be. A perfect moment. And I know I could never measure up to the man you think I am. But for that evening, in that bed, legs entwined while the warm post-glow sweat cools... I want to be worth it. In your eyes, I hope I'm worth it.”

“You know what I find adorable and amusing about you?" she asked.Sigh. "What?""Your determination to always warn people about yourself.""I feel like my life is one big disclaimer.""It seems like a lot of work.""It's only fair to give everyone the chance to run away first.”

“Fuck the past. It's over and done with. The trophies. The fashion. The fights. The abuse. The hate. The love. The wars. The losses. The regrets. The lessons. None of it matters anymore. Because that was yesterday. So what have you done today to make a better life for yourself?”

“because the tree keeps growing regardless if you're too tired to climb”

“i need to become beautiful.become remarkable.become unforgettable.become someones everything.”