Delphine de Vigan

“Approcher Lucile, avec toutes les précautions du monde ou à bras raccourcis, c’est aussi approcher les autres, les vivants, au risque d’ailleurs de m’en écarter. À ma sœur, j’ai demandé comme aux autres de me parler de Lucile, de me prêter ses souvenirs.”

“L’homme que j’aime, dont l’amour se heurte parfois à mes absences, s’est inquiété, il y a quelque temps, de me voir entreprendre ce travail. C’est ainsi en tout cas que j’ai interprété sa question, posée avec une certaine prudence : avais-je besoin d’écrire ça ? Ce à quoi, sans hésitation, j’ai répondu que non. J’avais besoin d’écrire et ne pouvais écrire rien d’autre, rien d’autre que ça. La nuance est de taille !”

“Before I met No I thought that violence meant shouting and hitting and war and blood. Now I know that there can also be violence in silence and that it’s sometimes invisible to the naked eye. There’s violence in the time that conceals wounds, the relentless succession of days, the impossibility of turning back the clock. Violence is what escapes us. It’s silent and hidden. Violence is what remains inexplicable, what stays forever opaque...My mother stands there at the living room door with her arms by her sides. And I think that there's violence in that too - in her inability to reach out to me, to make the gesture which is impossible and so forever suspended.”

“I used to think things were the way they are for a reason, that there was some hidden meaning. I used to think that this meaning governed the way the world was. But it's an illusion to think that there are good and bad reasons. Grammar is a lie to make us think that what we say is connected by a logic that you'll find if you study it, a lie that gone on for centuries. Because I now know that life just lurches between stability and instability and doesn't obey any law.”

“But sometimes the night reveals the only truth that time passes and things will never be seen the same again.”

“You can learn to find unknowns in equations, draw equidistant lines and demonstrate theorems, but in real life there's nothing to position, calculate, or guess.”

“Vous êtes tout les deux les personnes que j'ai le plus aimées au monde et j'ai fait de mon mieux possible, croyez-le.Serrez bien contre vous vos beaux enfants.LucilePS : [...] Je sais bien que ça va vous faire de la peine mais c'est inéluctable à plus ou moins de temps et je préfère mourir vivante.”

“Vorher glaubte ich, die Dinge hätten eine Bestimmung, einen verborgenen Sinn. Vorher glaubte ich, dieser Sinn sei der Gestaltung der Welt vorausgegangen. Aber der Gedanke, es gebe schlechte und gute Gründe, ist eine Illusion,[...], denn ich weiß jetzt, dass das Leben nur eine Folge von Ruhe- und Ungleichgewichtszuständen ist, deren Anordnung keiner Notwendigkeit unterliegt.”

“I thought that helping someone meant sharing everything, even the things you can’t understand, even the darkest stuff.”

“La signora mi fa un gesto con la mano. E io capisco cosa significa un gesto come quello, mentre scende la notte in un parco vuoto. Significa ti toccherà essere forte e avere molto coraggio, ti toccherà crescere con questo. O meglio senza”

“io sono una minuscola lumaca con le converse ai piedi”

“Wir sind imstande, Überschallflugzeuge und Raketen ins All zu schicken, einen Verbrecher anhand eines Haars oder eines winzigen Hautpartikels zu identifizieren, eine Tomate zu züchten, die im Kühlschrank drei Monate lang völlig faltenfrei bleibt, und Milliarden von Informationen auf einem Mikrochip zu speichern. Wir sind imstande, die Leute auf der Straße sterben zu lassen.”

“And when he catches me looking at him, he gives me this incredibly sweet, calm smile, and I think that we've got our lives ahead of us, our whole lives.”

“If you consider that a single straight line can be drawn between any two points, one day I'm going to draw a line from him to me or me to him.”

“All my life I've felt on the outside wherever I am - out of the picture, the conversation, at a distance, as though I were the only one able to hear the sounds or words that other's can't, and deaf to the words that they hear. As if I'm outside the frame, on the other side of a huge, invisible window.”

“My Dad says that we're the meanest to the ones we love because we know they'll still love us.”

“Some secrets are like fossils and the stone has become too heavy to turn over.”

“People who think that grammar is just a collection of rules and restrictions are wrong. If you get to like it, grammar reveals the hidden meaning of history, hides disorder and abandonment, links things and brings opposites together. Grammar is a wonderful way of organising the world how you'd like it to be.”