Gordon Rouston

I had a dream, not the nightmare I lived for many years suffering from addiction to drugs and alcohol. My drinking started out just like the movie, "ARTHUR," and wound up just like the movie, "ONE FLEW OVER THE CUKOOS NEST,". From a likeable, loveable guy full of life excelling at everything I tried, accomplished equestrian, avid tennis player, the good son and friend to a hopeless, helpless drunk. My life went from happy, joyous and free to one of paranoia, insecurity, manic mood swings, suicide attempts, bouts with the wrong side of the law, anger and tremendous fear. How did what started out so good wind up so bad?

Finally I placed the gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger, the end was here or was it? The beginning of a whole new way of life that culminated on that fateful day led me to the new life I live today, free and happy the past (36) years. I finally found LOVE that had eluded me for so long.