Julie Anne Peters

“Take it as a token. Because tomorrow when I go, I want you to believe friends are possible.”

“This is my fault. Mine. Making her think I'd be here for her.”

“Don't choose me. I'm not worth your time.”

“What did she see in me? What does she see that I don't?”

“I don't have alot of people to talk to. Not alot of people are worth my time.”

“But you'd sell your soul for it, wouldn't you? For one day of feeling beautiful.”

“People don't change. There are two kinds of people in the world: winners and losers. Black and white. I don't know where gray fits in, or if you can even live in that shade.”

“Why am i here? What's my purpose?”

“Life is so unfair.”

“As they were carting him off on a gurney, all I could think was, I wish that was me.”

“I wish I was invisible to him, to everyone.”

“She'll go to hell. They all will. If hell will even have them.”

“But its not funny. Not to people who've been told they're losers their whole lives and believe they will never be anything else.”

“I hated him. I hated them all. They made me hate myself even more than I already did.”

“Yeah, I hear the truth. But this is my truth.”

“I got singled out. I don't know why. Why do people always target me? Is it because I'm short and they figure I can't fight back? They're right, I can't, but it's not because I'm vertically challenged.”

“I think about my choice. Either outcome is bleak. If I stay and live through high school, go to college, get a job, what will ever change? This blackness inside will never go away. I don't make friends; I'll always be alone. If I go, at least there's hope of peace. Chance of a new and better life on the other side.”

“Who becomes you? No one. No one should become me. When I die, I don't want my body or soul inhabited. I wouldn't wish me on anyone.”

“I throw him two bones: a smile and a nod. Both lies.”

“My parents will be sad for a while, and they may even blame themselves, the way they do now. Eventually they'll come to peace with my decision. I hope they'll realize I'm finally at peace.”

“I'm all she's got and if I don't make it this time . . ." You'll pass through the light. A ribbon of guilt twists my stomach. I'm all Kim and Chip have too. But the difference is, they'll be better off without me.”

“Never question the sanity of a woman who can render you defenseless with a look.”

“This is my vision-what I imagine I'll pass through on my way to the light. The blue sky, the clouds, the rays of light.”

“No one else knows I'm alive, which means they won't notice when I'm gone.”

“She's still doing it, pushing me into situations I can't handle, making me cope. She knows I can't cope.”

“Do what, Kim? Lead a normal life? Too late. Way too late.”

“There's no reason to speak. I have nothing to say.”

“You can't trust machines. You can't trust people.”

“I had to fight so hard not to cry.”

“They didn't guarantee you'd come out a whole person.”

“The truth remains. I was, and am, disgusted with myself.”

“That's love? To let someone beat you and be hateful to you? These people are all so... Weak. Powerless to change their lives. I know the feeling. All you can do is take it. No one understands how it beats you down.”

“Like anyone cared where I was, or who I was.”

“I don't have to answer. Until you know the question.”

“I suppose I'll be remembered as dull. Timid. No one ever knew me. People came. They went. I was kind, I think. Not sympathetic, but considerate of others. I always gave up my place in line. I loaned out pencils and paper, or let people take them from me. I never reported a sexual assault.”

“I know it's hard on her. If I don't tell her she'll kill me." He pauses. "That was supposed to be funny.”

“I'd decided to write him and tell him to leave me alone. Please, in a nice way, go away, I really can't deal with you.”

“Why couldn't I have a fatal disease? It'd be so much easier.”

“I hear you. I just don't believe a word you say.”

“I may be fat and ugly, but I'm not stupid. If anyone had ever gotten past my looks, they might've noticed I have a brain.”

“At times like this, I'm thankful I don't feel love.”

“You would never understand, Kim. You think I'm normal; you wish I was.”

“I'm going to die a virgin. I like the thought if it. So pure.”

“Oh sure. Because we always talk about deep down stuff.”

“I knew right then and there nothing was ever going to change. It wouldn't matter if I was tall or short or fat or thin or absent every day. I was a loser from birth.”

“Who will see you through the darkness? "Me," I key in the answer. "I'll find my own way.”

“I won't be alive so I won't care who finds me.”

“It was her way of saying, "You should kill yourself.”

“Girls scare me more than boys. Boys are cruel. Girls are mean.”

“There's always a way out. All you have to do is take it.”