Nyrae Dawn

“—Porque eres tu. Porque prefieres lastimarte a ti mismo antes de lastimar a alguien más. Porque eres un amigo asombroso y un increíble hijo. Tu peleaste por mí, y te preocupaste por mí.—Te lastimé. —Tu te has hecho mas daño.”

“Tegan leans forward, pressing his lips to mine too quickly for my taste. "Because." Another kiss. "You're." Oh, one more. "My girl." Two kisses this time. "And it doesn't feel right for you to pay me for us to work out together. Because I want to be able to kiss you when I want and I can't do that if you're my client."At least I think that's what he said. I'm not sure I caught anything after him telling me I'm his girl."I am? Your girl, I mean?"He gives my waist a squeeze and I suck in my stomach. "I thought so, unless you're only using me for my make-out abilities.""You're so -""Conceited. I know. But you like it.”

“Maybe I don't deserve to ask you this, but I'm going to anyway. I want another chance. I want us to be together, with nothing in between us. No need, no pain, hurt, fear. I want us together because we want to be. Because we love each other. I'll never leave you again.”

“I think it has to do with the fact that I was in love with you, thought you might feel the same, almost kissed you, got my heart broken, thought I got over you, only to get broken again when I found out you're leaving.”

“Even if the next few days aren't perfect, this moment is.”

“Our room has two beds. If this had been a movie, [the hotel] would have been full so we would have had to share a bed. Why doesn't stuff like that happen in real life?”

“When someone is important to you, you take care of them. You try to take their pain away, pull it into yourself if you can, because it's easier to fight her demons for her than to risk someone scarring her.”

“It was strange. That little zing that went through me when she looked up with those big green eyes. It was at that moment I wondered why girls ever needed me - The Hook-up Doctor, I mean. If they had all the power she had in those eyes, they could have anything they wanted.”

“I was still mad at her, but it felt different when I could see her than when I couldn't. Watching her took some of that anger away.”

“I was totally aware of that one spot [where she touched me] more than I'd been aware of anything in my whole life.”

“-Si tienes frío es que estoy haciendo algo mal.”

“Por primera vez en quizás nunca, cuando nos alejamos, no estamos locos. Uno no está acechando lejos de la otra. Nos alejamos por separado, pero juntos.”

“Do I ever feel like anything?”

“I squeeze my eyes shut as though that will somehow make it go away, but I know it won’t. It happened and there’s no changing it. No changing any of the things that happen to us. All there is to do is move on. Starting now.”

“We can't always control what we don't like, Tiny Dancer.”

“It's easier to hide in the dark...but easier to let go too.”

“This isn’t a fucking game anymore. No charades here. I don’t know exactly what to call it, but whatever it is, it’s ours. I’m going to latch onto it. And never let go.”

“I’m tired of running … This is the only thing that’s real. Don’t run from me, Tiny Dancer.”

“I don’t know how in the fuck we got here, but somehow this game is more real than anything else.And I want it.I fucking want it.”

“I thought this was a game,” I remind him. “Not anymore and you know it. Everything else in my life is all fucked up. This is the only thing that’s real.”

“I grab her arms and pull her toward me. Now she has her arms wrapped around my waist and we’re chest to chest. She’s laughing and I almost want to laugh with her. For a second it feels real and okay. The knot in my gut loosens and I’m not scared to breathe.”

“When we pull away we’re both breathing hard, but I don’t think she’s thinking about her aunt or her mom anymore. “Damn I’m good.”

“Tomorrow… don’t remind me I said this. I won’t want to talk about it, but tonight… keep me safe.”

“and i am... looking, i mean. you said look at you and i just want to tell you, i am. - tegan”

“No es él marcando el ritmo y yo tratando de ponerme al día, o viceversa. Nos alejamos juntos, iguales.”

“Tal vez yo no merezco preguntarte esto, pero lo haré de todos modos. Quiero otra oportunidad. Quiero que estemos juntos, sin nada entre nosotros. Sin necesidad, sin dolor, sin miedo. Quiero que nosotros estemos juntos porque eso es lo que queremos. Porque nos amamos el uno al otro. No te voy a volver a dejar de nuevo.Me toma un par de minutos antes de que pueda encontrar mi voz. Él me ama. Quiere volver conmigo. Y yo quiero eso. Los dos queremos eso. Sin necesidad. Hay una gran diferencia ahí. Es como que el aire entre nosotros está limpio. Siempre ha sido puro, porque siempre nos hemos amado realmente, pero ahora estamos listos para estar enamorados. Listos para estar juntos.”

“Nadie puede salvar a nadie. He aprendido eso. Todos tenemos que salvarnos a nosotros mismos.”

“She loves him the way a mother should love their child. Thoroughly. Completely. To her, he's the most important person in the world and I'm so very happy they have that.”

“Tener sobrepeso no convierte a una persona en alguien vergonzoso, al igual que ser delgado no te convierte en alguien del cual estar orgulloso. No. Lo que importa se encuentra dentro. En cómo te sientes contigo mismo y la manera en que tratas a los demás.”

“Speaking of - why the heck am I looking at his figure? My eyes snap up. Sure enough, he's looking, cocky little grin in place like he's God's gift to the female eye and he caught me praising the Lord.”

“It’s so strange how one choice can derail so many lives. It was so huge to me, I expected her answer to change everything, but it didn’t. I guess that’s life, right? You never really know what’s waiting for you. You never really know what’s going to happen or why. You just have to be able to deal with it. Big or small.”

“You don't have to do it on your own. Let me take some of the weight, baby."But he has so much already. "You have your own problems.""We'll share each others.”

“But my stomach starts constricting because I MIGHT HAVE WANTED IT TO BE A DATE. I mean, what is that? Dates lead to commitment and commitment leads to temporary insanity and temporary insanity leads to full on mental illness—picking out china patterns, choosing museums to get married in—and ends with two fucked-in-the head sons and a dad trying to hold it together when he’s just as fucked-in-the-head as they are.So no, I definitely don’t want it to have been a date.”

“Ahora me doy cuenta, que no es perfecto. Él tenía razón en eso todo el tiempo y no es justo que yo siempre trate de hacer que se sienta de esa manera. Nadie es perfecto. Él tiene problemas como yo. Apesta llegar a esta conclusión ahora.Mostrando sus imperfecciones en el parque ese día casi me mata, pero ahora empuja más vida en mí. Tegan no es perfecto. No es más que un hombre. Un hermoso, dulce, tipo maravilloso, pero sólo un hombre de todos modos.Tiene miedos, inseguridades y remordimientos. Me lastimo más que nadie, pero él me amaba más de lo que nadie lo hizo, también.”

“If you have to use the words, “deep down” all that means is you're fooling yourself. You're seeing what you want to see and not what's really there.”

“El roce de sus dedos es como si una pluma me hiciera cosquillas de la cabeza a los pies. El epicentro de un terremoto. Dondequiera que me toca es el epicentro, pero las réplicas, las vibraciones se puede sentir en todas partes de mi cuerpo.”

“I'm fucking good at this boyfriend shit. Who would have thought?”

“You have skeletons, too, Carter Shaw. Don't think I don't know it. I think...I think people with secrets, or with a past, I guess I should say, I think we're kindred spirits. Like maybe we see something in each other that no one else takes the time to see.”

“I'm a prick half the time, but you make me better. You make me happy. I don’t want to lose you. I love you. I don’t want to lose you.”

“Just know that you can. I won’t tell. I might not be able to do much for you, but I’ll hold your secrets.”

“The cup is half full, sunshine and flowers and I try to act like I agree, but really I’m pissed someone dumped out half of my drink.”

“Things said in the heat of the moment never count.”

“It was freaky how once you realized you loved someone, and they felt the same way about you, they could look different, yet the same; how they felt familiar, but not.”

“Jaden: "Dude, you've found something wrong with every girl. I'm about to play this one solo if you can't make up your mind."Bastian: "We're not trying to decide between a Big Mac or a chicken sandwich here. This is some serious shit. We want epicness, we have to be choosy.”

“People think alcoholics are violent. They don't hold down jobs or they're out drinking every night. No offense to the people who believe that, but they don't know jack. Sometime, people do it to DEAL. Because fate sat down and decided, 'Hey, let's see how much shit we can throw at this person before they break.' Before all the skinned knees and bruised limbs keep them from getting up after one last fall.”

“My arm itches to reach up and wrap around her. To pull her closer, but can we get closer? Right now she might be closer to me than anyone's ever been.”

“I have to bite my lip not to lean down and kiss her. God, I want to kiss her so bad”

“Her eyes don't leave her book, but I see her smile. It's like the inside of my chest hiccups or something at the sight.”

“She played me. I totally got hustled by Kira. And I like it.”

“Right now, I could do with a little less "Carter, I need you to" and a little more, "Carter, do what you need to do." Hell, maybe even a little, "Carter, do you need help?”