Paul Auster

“I've been trying to fit everything in, trying to get to the end before it's too late, but I see now how badly I've deceived myself. Words do not allow such things. The closer you come to the end, the more there is to say. The end is only imaginary, a destination you invent to keep yourself going, but a point comes when you realize you will never get there. You might have to stop, but that is only because you have run out of time. You stop, but that does not mean you have come to an end.”

“Reason and memory are nearly always at odds.”

“It was. It will never be again. Remember.”

“I learned that books are never finished, that it is possible for stories to go on writing themselves without an author.”

“Lo que realmente me asombra no es que todo esté derrumbado, sino la gran cantidad de cosas que todavía siguen en pie.”

“He aquí el dilema, por un lado queremos sobrevivir, adaptarnos, aceptar las cosas tal cual están; pero, por otro lado, llegar a esto implica destruir todas aquellas cosas que alguna vez nos hicieron seres humanos.”

“Pero cuando la fe desaparece, cuando comprendes que ni siquiera te queda las esperanza de recuperar la esperanza, entonces tiendes a llenar los espacios vacíos con sueños, pequeña fantasías y cuentos infantiles que te ayuden a sobrevivir.”

“It is also true that memory sometimes comes to him as a voice. It is a voice that speaks inside him, and it is not necessarily his own. It speaks to him in the way a voice might tell stories to a child, and yet at times this voice makes fun of him, or calls him to attention, or curses him in no uncertain terms. At times it willfully distorts the story it is telling him, changing the facts to suit its whims, catering to the interests of drama rather than truth. Then he must speak to it in his own voice and tell it to stop, thus returning it to the silence it came from. At other times it sings to him. At still other times it whispers. And then there are the times it merely hums, or babbles, or cries out in pain. And even when it says nothing, he knows it is still there, and in the silence of this voice that says nothing, he waits for it to speak.”

“He finds it extraordinary that on some mornings, just after he has woken up, as he bends down to tie his shoes, he is flooded with a happiness so intense, a happiness so naturally and harmoniously at one with the world, that he can feel himself alive in the present, a present that surrounds him and permeates him, that breaks through him with the sudden, overwhelming knowledge that he is alive. And the happiness he discovers in himself at that moment is extraordinary.”

“Paintings. Or the collapse of time in images.”

“Non ricorda più l'ultima volta che è riuscita a dormire per sei ore piene, sei ore ininterrotte senza svegliarsi da un brutto sogno o scoprire che i suoi occhi si erano aperti all'alba, e sa che questi problemi di sonno sono un brutto segno, un avviso inequivocabile del fatto che l'aspettano guai, ma malgrado quello che continua a ripeterle sua madre, non vuole tornare ai farmaci. Prendere una di quelle pillole è come inghiottire una piccola dose di morte. Quando inizi con quella roba, i tuoi giorni vengono trasformati in un regime stordente di smemoratezza e confusione, e non c'è momento in cui senti la testa imbottita di batuffoli di cotone e brandelli di carta. Ellen non vuole chiudere la sua vita per sopravvivere alla sua vita. Vuole che i suoi sensi siano svegli, formulare pensieri che non svaniscano nel mentre le si presentano, sentirsi viva in tutti i modi in cui un tempo si sentiva viva. Ora non sono in programma collassi. Non può permettersi altri cedimenti, ma malgrado gli sforzi di tenersi salda nel qui e ora, la pressione si è nuovamente accumulata in lei, ricomincia a sentire fitte del vecchio panico, il nodo nella gola, il sangue che le scorre troppo in fretta nelle vene, il cuore contratto e il polso frenetico. Paura senza oggetto, come gliel'ha descritta una volta il dottor Burnham. No, dice ora fra sé: paura di morire senza aver vissuto.”

“Doch am Ende sind Bücher kein Luxus, sondern eine Notwendigkeit, und Lesen ist eine Sucht, von der er keinesfalls geheilt werden möchte.”

“You can't see yourself. You know what you look like because of mirrors and photographs, but out there in the world, as you move among your fellow human beings, whether strangers or friends or the most intimate beloveds, your own face is invisible to you. You can see other parts of yourself, arms and legs, hands and feet, shoulders and torso, but only from the front, nothing of the back except the backs of your legs if you twist them into the right position, but not your face, never your face, and in the end - at least as far as others are concerned - your face is who you are, the essential fact of your identity. Passports do not contain pictures of hands and feet. Even you, who have lived inside your body for sixty-four years now, would probably be unable to recognize your foot in an isolated photograph of that foot, not to speak of your ear, or your elbow, or one of your eyes in close-up. All so familiar to you in the context of the whole, but utterly anonymous when taken piece by piece. We are all aliens to ourselves, and if we have any sense of who we are, it is only because we live inside the eyes of others.”

“Deseaba llamar a Sophie. Un día incluso fui hasta la oficina de correos y esperé en la cola de las llamadas al extranjero pero no llegué a llamarla. Ahora las palabras me fallaban constantemente y me entró pánico ante la idea de derrumbarme en el teléfono. ¿Qué podía decirle, después de todo? En lugar de eso, le mandé una postal de Laurel y Hardy. En la parte de atrás escribí: "Los verdadero matrimonios nunca tienen sentido. Mira la pareja del dorso. Prueba que cualquier cosa es posible, ¿no? Quizá deberíamos empezar a ponernos sombreros hongo. Por lo menos, acuérdate de vaciar el armario antes de que yo vuelva. Abrazos a Ben”

“Imagine knowing that you're good at something, so good that the world would be in awe of you if they could see your work, and then keeping yourself a secret from the world.”

“I was perfectly calm and perfectly insane, perfectly prepared to accept what the moment had offered. Indifference of that magnitude is rare and because it can be achieved only by someone ready to let go of who he is, it demands respect. It inspires awe in those who gaze upon it.”

“The world was full of holes, tiny apertures of meaninglessness, microscopic rifts that the mind could walk through, and once you were on the other side of one of those holes, you were free of yourself, free of your life free of your death, free of everything that belonged to you.”

“It was one of the most sublimely exhilarating moments of my life. I was half a step in front of the real, an inch or two beyond the confines of my body, and when the thing happened just as I thought it would, I felt my skin had become transparent. I wasn't occupying space anymore so much as melting into it. What was around me was also inside me, and I had only to look into myself in order to see the world.”

“I was in the book, and the book was in my head, and as long as I stayed inside my head, I could go on writing the book. It was like living in a padded cell, but of all the lives I could have lived at that moment, it was the only one that made sense to me. I wasn't capable of being in the world, and I knew that if I tried to go back into it before I was ready, I would be crushed.”

“Bildiğim bir şey varsa oda karşılığını vermeden bir şey alamayacağınızdır, istediğiniz şey ne kadar büyükse karşılığında ödemeniz gereken bedel de o kadar büyük olur.”

“you can survive only if nothing is necessary to you”

“If your only motive is to be loved, to ingratiate yourself with the crowd, you're bound to fall into bad habits, and eventually the public will grow tired of you. You have to keep testing yourself, pushing yourself as hard as you can. You do it for yourself, but in the end it's this struggle to do better that endears you to your fans.”

“Wounds are an essential part of life, and until you are wounded in some way, you cannot become a man.”

“Đồ vật, những vật vô tri, có thể diễn đạt tình cảm của con người.”

“Sáng trưng, rồi bóng tối. Nắng dội xuống từ mọi ngả trời, sau đó là đêm đen, những vì sao im lặng, gió xao động lá cành. Lệ thường là vậy.”

“Each book is a new book. I’ve never written it before and I have to teach myself how to write it as I go along. The fact that I’ve written books in the past seems to play no part in it. I always feel like a beginner and I’m continually running into the same difficulties, the same blocks, the same despairs. You make so many mistakes as a writer, cross out so many bad sentences and ideas, discard so many worthless pages, that finally what you learn is how stupid you are. It’s a humbling occupation.”

“We are all aliens to ourselves.”

“We are left with nothing but death, the irreducible fact of our own mortality. Death after a long illness we can accept with resignation. Even accidental death we can ascribe to fate. But for a man to die of no apparent cause, for a man to die simply because he is a man, brings us so close to the invisible boundary between life and death that we no longer know which side we are on. Life becomes death, and it is as if this death has owned this life all along. Death without warning. Which is to say: life stops. And it can stop at any moment.”

“That's how it is with want. As long as you lack something you yearn for it without cease. if only I could have that one thing, you tell yourself, all my problems would be solved. But once you get it, once the object of your desires is thrust into your hands, it begins to lose its charm. Other wants assert themselves, other desires make themselves felt, and bit by bit you discover that you're right back where you started.”

“La primera vez que entendía que la memoria es un lugar, un sitio de verdad al que se podía ir”

“¿y de qué servía un hogar si uno no se sentía a salvo en él, si le trataban como a un paria precisamente en el sitio que debía servirle de refugio?”

“Si hubiera sido capaz de sonreír, habría sonreído en aquel momento”

“Si mantienes los ojos abiertos, siempre estarás perdido”

“Conoce a tu enemigo y no te acerques a él”

“Good begets good; evil begets evil; and even if the good you give is met by evil, you have no choice but to go on giving better than you get. Otherwise-and these were Willy's exact words-why bother to go on living?”

“On his best walks, he was able to feel that he was nowhere. And this, finally, was all he ever asked of things: to be nowhere. New York was the nowhere he had built around himself, and he realized that he has no intention of ever leaving it again.”

“Sólo de la constancia nacen las grandes cosas”

“I cannot say who I will be tomorrow. Each day is new, and each day I am born again. I see hope everywhere, even in the dark, and when I die, I will perhaps become God.”

“If the world weren't such a beautiful place, we might all turn into cynics”

“Eighteen is a terrible age, and while I walked around with the conviction that I was somehow more grown-up than my classmates, the truth was that I had merely found a different way of being young.”

“One day there is life . . . and then, suddenly, it happens there is death”

“Nimeni nu poate spune ce anume dă naștere unei cărti, și cu atât mai puțin cel care o scrie. Cărțile se nasc din ignoranță iar dacă trăiesc și după ce au fost scrise, asta se întâmplă numai și numai pentru că nu pot fi înțelese.”

“Leer por puro placer, por la hermosa quietud que te envuelve cuando resuenan en la cabeza las palabras de un autor.”

“...........La vida se metió por medio —dos años en el ejército, trabajo, matrimonio, responsabilidades familiares, necesidad de ganar cada vez más dinero, toda esa cagada que nos deja empantanados cuando no tenemos los cojones de luchar por lo que queremos—, pero nunca perdí el interés por los libros.”

“and now we get to the hard part. the endings, the farewells, and the famous last words. if you don't hear from me often, remember that you're in my thoughts.”

“Mr. Blank's old friend is acting up again, and because our hero is no longer wearing the cotton trousers and underpants and is quite naked under the pajama bottoms, there is no barrier to prevent Mr. Bigshot from bounding out through the slit and poking his head into the light of day.”

“Peace on earth, good will toward men. Piss on earth, good will toward none.”

“But if these unavoidable separations cause you a measure of pain, they also increase your longing for her, and perhaps that isn’t a bad thing, you decide, for you spend your days in the thrall of breathless anticipation, agitated and alert, counting the hours until you can see her and hold her again. Intense. That is the word you use to describe yourself now. You are intense. Your feelings are intense. Your life has become increasingly intense.”

“You understood that there was no better thing in the world than to be kissed in the way she was kissing you, that this was without argument the single most important justification for being alive.”

“Writing begins in the body, it is the music of the body, and even if the words have meaning, can sometimes have meaning, the music of the words is where the meanings begin....Writing as a lesser form of dance.”