“Still, to be urged to write and to be urged to publish are two different things and nobody so far was urging her to do the latter.”
“I suppose this was the first time I had ever felt an urge not to be. Never an urge to die, far less an urge to put an end to myself - simply an urge not to be. This disgusting, hostile and unlovely world was not made for me, nor I for it.”
“My urge to write is an urge not to self-expressionism but to self-transcendence. My work is both bigger and smaller than I am.”
“The urge to destroy is also a creative urge.”
“The urge for destruction is also a creative urge!”
“The urge to cut still pulled at me. Would I always have this urge? I wondered. Would I be like an alcoholic constantly fighting the desire to drink?”