“Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.”
“Out lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.”
“I have to remind myself to breathe -- almost to remind my heart to beat!”
“I have to keep reminding myself that almost everybody is always lying.”
“Grief should have been all-consuming. I hated myself that it wasn't. But sometimes I forgot. Jesus, how could I fucking forget? Sometimes I went for minutes without remembering my dad was dead, but that whole time it was regrouping so it could hit me all over again.”
“I am so stupid, so easily fooled. It's really almost funny. If I could lift a finger I would gladly kill myself.”