“I am wandering inside, wandering through my past, trying to see if there is a place there strong enough to hold me.—Ruth Mendenberg”

“Deep inside me something says don't feel anything, go back to sleep, when you feel, it hurts. When you love, people die." —Ruth Mendenberg”

“(B)ut who can start over when memories never leave you? —Ruth Mendenberg”

“I want someone to pinch me so I can feel something, anything. I'm sick of this numbness, of feeling so alone and outside of everything, but I know it's too dangerous to wake up." —Ruth Mendenberg”

“I go in alone, for there is no one for me, but I don't care, I tell myself; I'd expected no one.—Ruth”

“(S)omehow I've survived again. I don't know how to stop.—Ruth”

“As for sex. Well, of course I could’ve had sex. Guys will have sex with a watermelon if they’re desperate enough. Lots of girls try to prove their love by having sex. It only proves they’re having sex.”