“If it wasn't for me, I'd do brilliantly.”
“If I wasn't doing this, I'd be doing something else.”
“There wasn't an in-between for me. I lived at extremes. And maybe I'd die at them too.”
“Of course I wasn't abused. If I were; things would be so simple. I'd have a reason to for being in a shrinks office. I'd have a justification and something to work on. The world wasn't going to give me something that tidy.”
“I'm not saying you did the wrong thing. I'm not even saying it wasn't something I'd thought of doing, myself. But even if it was the just thing to do, or the fitting thing, it still wasn't the right thing.”
“I'd said it because I couldn't look directly at the sun and not remark that it was blinding and brilliant.”