“In my confused state I wondered if I had not died and gone to hell. And if this was the case, I wished that I had been allowed more opportunities to sin, for this seemed a rather excessive judgement on what had been a frankly dull and blameless life. But I was not dead. I could see that now.”
“I had been alone more than I could have been had I gone by myself.”
“Wish I had known what seemed so strong has been and gone.”
“clad not exactly as a boy but, rather confusingly, as the boy I would have been, had I been more of a girl”
“I might have speculated on my chances of going to Heaven; but candidly I did not care. I could not have wept if I had tried. I had no wish to review the evils of my past. But the past did seem to have been a bit wasted. The road to Hell may be paved with good intentions: the road to Heaven is paved with lost opportunities.”
“For a moment i thought i had died and gone to heaven. Now i see that i am very much alive, and heaven has been brought to me”