“I didnt like being reminded about how self-absorbed i was. I wanted to be over this, done with this. I didnt want to live in a broken world or a broken me. I wasnt trying to weasel out of anything. I just wasnt in the mood of being on the earth that night. I get like that sometimes when it rains, or when i see certain sad movies.”

“You ever get ill at ease? said Rawlins.About what?I dont know. About anything. Just ill at ease.Sometimes. If you're someplace you aint supposed to be I guess you'd be ill at ease. Should be anyways.Well suppose you were ill at ease and didnt know why. Would that mean that you might be someplace you wasnt supposed to be and didnt know it?”

“i hated how my parents would talk about me like i wasnt watching.”

“i am humanthe lining of mucus still bargainthe vain i fear is like a miracleordinary people would always know about their heartbut as for me,, CLUELESSnobody knows me wellnobody understands menobody would careeventhough how much i put an effort into itim helplesstill nowi didnt changedi really dontand how much my aunt would adviceits just like pouring water into the leavesi dunt want it to be,i want to accomplish as i want it to be like i always wantedbut i dun know why am i so cruel to myselfi didnt try at alli let it goto be like i dunt want it to bei wont let it goto be like i want it to be”

“And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonightAnd I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I amthis song remind me of die for me at sometimes on in the chapter :)”

“You cant have both.Avian was right. Even though I didnt know how to handle feeling like this, I knew what I had been doing was wrong. I couldn't have both. It was unfair to both of them. And it was tearing me into two people. But how was I supposed to choose? I felt a tie to both of them, a tie so solid I wasnt sure that even I was strong enough to sever it.”