“I never made love, only hate. Hate for myself mostly.” - Ben Fieldstone”

“You are real. You're the most human person I've ever known."- Ben Fieldstone”

“I hated myself, but I also loved myself in a hateful way.”

“I hated him. I hated them all. They made me hate myself even more than I already did.”

“I hate myself I hate myself I hate this I hate this I disgust myself I hate it I hate it I hate it just let me fucking die.”

“Please don’t hate you??!! I hate that I love you. Loving you made me waste a year of my life. Lovingyou made me be passionate about nothing but you. Loving you made me take risks I never would haveotherwise. Loving you made me give it up to you. Loving you made me neglect my parents and Amy.Loving you made me not care that my grandma just died. Loving you made me turn out bitter andhopeless like her. Loving you made me hate myself for being dumped by you. Loving you made medeluded, irrational, inconsiderate, and a liar. And because I love you, you’re always going to haunt me.”