“In short: I felt my existence was tainted, in some subtle but essential way.”
“If the essential core of the person is denied or suppressed, he gets sick sometimes in obvious ways, sometimes in subtle ways, sometimes immediately, sometimes later.”
“I have yet to hear God's audible voice, although I have often felt led by God in more subtle ways.”
“Denial is an essential part of my existence. Without it, I am nothing.”
“I was fucked-up in some essential way that other people could see, but I couldn’t.”
“I felt a subtle sense of disappointment as I left the morgue.”