“I thought living dead girls couldn't feel pain, thought I was emptied out but I'm not, I'm not.”

“I want to care, but I don't. I look at you and all I feel is tired. I walk through school and all I want to do is leave. I wake up in the morning and don't know why I'm here. I feel like I'm not real.”

“The truth is, I feel beyond sad. I feel empty. Numb. ”

“No, it can't," I say. "It's— it's the kind of thing you want to say, that you want to believe, but it isn't— I know isn't true. I thought my heart knew things, but what I thought was real turned out to be a lie, and now I don't—”

“Something in me, in my bruised heart, wakes up, and even though I'm terrified, I don't push the feeling away.”

“I'm so not interesting in having to try and make something out of foil."What, you didn't like the poncho with wraparound leggings?"It was beyond hideou- wait a minute. You watch that show?"My mom loves it."But your suppose to be sulking in the basement getting ready to light fires."What can I say? I'm a failure as a teenager. I watch TV with my mom.”

“I wish it had never happened because then I wouldn't think about it as I'm falling asleep.”