“And how can it be he's so in love with me? To grow up without love, and still have so much inside?”

“I don't love him, & he definitely doesn't love me. Still, he semi-fills a gaping black hole inside me. That place wants love, maybe even needs love, but love is something I"m pretty sure doesn't exist.”

“He's solid."You're fractured."He's hopeful."You're hopeless."He's always there."You're half there."He's faithful."You're so not."He's giving."You're afraid to give."He's honest."You lie all the time."He's loving."You don't know how to love.”

“I still care for you, you know..That phrase again. Everyone cares for me. They just don't know how to love me.”

“I love you so much when i see you i get butterflies”

“My life is over.My one forever love hasbeen snatched away,condemned by my ownfather's rules to die,just because he loved me.I am without a home,without a single person to love.And after havingdiscovered love, lived for a shortwhile surrounded by love,that is to much to bear.I am a pariah, at church,at school. The few peopleI once called friends havebetrayed me and causedthe death of my husband,our innocent child.And so they should die too.All of them. Dad. BishopCrandall. Trevor, Becca, Emily.With the pull of a 10mm hairtrigger, their lives will end at sacrament meeting.Such lovely irony!And when I finish there,I'll hide in the desert,reload, and go in searchof Carmen and Tiffany,who started the rumors.And Derek, just because.”

“Have you ever had so much to say that your mouth closed up tight struggling to harness the nuclear force coalescing within your words? Have you ever had so many thoughts churning inside you that you didn’t dare let them escape in case they blew you wide open? Have you ever been so angry that you couldn’t look in the mirror for fear of finding the face of evil glaring back at you?”