“I protect myself by refusing to know myself.”
“I just know that I don't want cheating. I refuse. I deepened myself but I don't believe in myself because my thought is invented.”
“I need to protect myself from myself. And my clone.”
“I tell myself it will protect me. He will protect me.”
“I wanted to protect him, which I was sure I could do, even if I could not protect myself.”
“And I think that in myself (and perhaps evident in what I write) fear of loss and the corresponding instinct to protect myself against loss are potent forces.”