“I thought to myself: 'Is the pain a little less than when I went away?' and tried to persuade myself that it was so.”

“...I realized that I knew less about loneliness than I had thought - and much less than I would know when he went away.”

“I was trying to explain my situation to myself. My situation was that I was in pain and nobody knew it, even I had trouble knowing it. So I told myself, over and over, You are in pain. It was the only way I could get through to myself. I was demonstrating externally and irrefutably an inward condition.”

“I have packed myself into silence so deeply and for so long that I can never unpack myself using words. When I speak, I only pack myself a little differently.”

“I cannot maintain a semblance of Normal anymore.I'd rather feel pain than try to fit in with you anymore.I'll throw it all away, like everybody else.I can finally be myself.Cuz I don't want to be myself.”

“I certainly will not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am quite enough in love. I should be sorry to be more”