“I could die in this bed with him right now, wrapped in his arms and I would never know that I had died.”

“If only I could die right now, then I would never have to live without him, I would just be gone...”

“I throw myself into him, letting him fill the empty hollow places being away from him. I'm already wrapped around him, but I push closer. He tightens his hold on me. Honestly, if I could fit myself into his skin and rest in-between his bones, right now, I would.”

“...the arms of his swim team sweatshirt still wrapped around the pillow on the bed - Em had said it smelled of him.”

“Above his bed the clock ticked off the minutes and I thought of the game Lindsey and I had played in the yard together: “he loves me/he loves me not” picked out on daisy’s petals. I could hear the clock casting my own two greatest wishes back to me in the same rhythm: “Die for me/don’t die for me, die for me/don’t die for me.” I could not help myself, it seemed, as I tore at his weakening heart. If he died, I would have him forever. Was this so wrong to want?We stood-the dead child and living-on either side of my father, both wanting the same thing. To have him to ourselves forever. To please us both was an impossibility.”

“if i die right now i would be an incredibly happy man, because the last thing i got to see was the most beautiful sight i could ever imagine”