“Anxiety isn't rational. And neither was I.”

“And that was the unusual thing about me. Unlike pretty much every teen I knew, I liked to be doing the right thing. I didn’t like breaking rules. I didn’t like pushing the envelope. I didn’t like trespassing, or sneaking into cinemas, or buying alcohol or cigarettes. I didn’t even feel comfortable running into a cafe to use the toilet without having first bought a drink. Basically, I didn’t like to do half the things all teenagers did almost habitually.”

“I am constantly frightened of the pain that will never come, whilst resolutely facing the pain that does.”

“Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.”

“Organized people are just too lazy to look for stuff.”

“I just miss you, in a quite simple desperate human way. Oh my dear, I can’t be clever and stand-offish with you: I love you too much for that. Too truly.You have no idea how stand-offish I can be with people I don’t love. I have brought it to a fine art. But you have broken down my defences. And I don’t really resent it.”

“I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal.”