“How did you fare with the Queen?" he asked."I have no idea," I said honestly. "Everything she said was perfectly nice, but the whole time she was looking at me as if I were something her dog spit up.”
In Leigh Bardugo's quote, the interaction between the speaker and the Queen reveals a profound disconnect that underscores themes of perception and social hierarchies. The speaker's honest response encapsulates the unsettling nature of feeling judged or devalued, even in polite circumstances.
The phrase "everything she said was perfectly nice" suggests a façade of congeniality. This contrast between superficial politeness and underlying disdain is pivotal, highlighting how societal norms often mask genuine feelings. The use of "as if I were something her dog spit up" vividly illustrates the extent of the speaker's discomfort. It evokes a strong visual and emotional reaction, suggesting that the Queen’s demeanor rendered the speaker not just insignificant but repulsive.
Overall, this quote invites reflection on the complexities of power dynamics and the often unspoken judgments that accompany them, exposing the fragility of self-worth in the face of authority. The speaker's vulnerability in this interaction resonates, prompting readers to consider how they navigate similar experiences in their own lives.
“I went for a walk last night and she asked me how long I was going to be gone. I said, 'The whole time.”
“Don't worry, Ian. I totally protected your anonymity. I told her you were my brother.""Great," he pouted."Now she's going to ask me about you. And I told you--I'm friendly and pleasant and then I move on.""You can do that. She'll find you perfectly understandable.""Oh? And why's that?""Well, she wondered about you. Said you ask for some heavy reading sometimes, but that you didn't make much conversation.""Oh, really?""Yes," Marcie explained. "I said you were brilliant, but not a very social animal. I said she shouldn't expect a lot of chitchat from you, but you were perfectly nice and there was no reason to be shy around you--you're safer than you look.""Is that so? And how did you convince her of that?""Easy. I said you were an idiot savant--brilliant in literature and many other things, but socially you weren't on your game.""Oh, Jesus Christ!"-Ian and Marcie”
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“it took Coyote a very long time indeed to show up, or that he looked distracted when he did. How a dog could look distracted, I didn’t know, but there you had it. “I’m not,” he said for the umpteenth time, “a dog.”
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