“I so badly needed to self-destruct.”
“And I so badly needed to self-destruct.”
“Please," I tell her. "Please forgive me. I'm so sorry that I hurt you. I'm so sorry that I've been an asshole and that I shut you out. I didn't know how to handle things without being self-destructive. Self-destruction is all I've ever known. Deep down, it's what I felt like I deserved.”
“I was so self-critical. I still am; but it's not as bad anymore.”
“Self improvement is masturbation. Now self destruction...”
“I was on some sort of sick, self-destruction thought stream.”