“But I will hold on hopeAnd I won't let you chokeOn the noose around your neckAnd I'll find strength in painAnd I will change my waysI'll know my name as it's called again”

“I'll find you," he says, watching me with the eyes I remember. "I won't let you go again”

“I know I'll hold this loss in my heart forever. I know I'll hold, I'll hold. I know.”

“Yesterday, when we were packing, Julius asked me,"If you could rub Tulip out of your past life, would you do it?"And I had to shake my head. I can't regret the times we had together. Sometimes I worry I won't have times like that again, that there will be no lit nights, no incandescent days. But I know it's not true. There can be colour in a million ways. I know I'll find it on my own.”

“I start to follow her, and Alex grabs my hand."I'll find you," he says, watching me with the eyes I remember. "I won't let you go again."I don't trust myself to speak. Instead I nod, hoping that he understands me. He squeezes my hand."Go," he says.”

“I want to tie one thousand balloons around my neckand float upwhile slowly dying of happiness.”