“A joy as intense as pain”
“Existence is this, I thought, a start of joy, a stab of pain, an intense pleasure, veins that pulse under the skin, there is no other truth to tell.”
“Only pains of life too intense to be borne could lead a man to forgo all response, to give up completely the joy of living as other men live. (153)”
“You bring joy and pain in equal measure. Joy because you are with me, but pain because it wont be for long.”
“Isn't joyful or painful this pain in which I rejoice”
“...the painful intensity of my sensations, even when they're happy ones; the blissful intensity of my sensations, even when they're sad.”