“When sadness was the sea, you were the one that taught me to swim”

“There’s a boiling pot of paranoia in the pit of his stomach. That slow, heavy weight he always has when he leaves the house, when he’s in the open and he’s carrying something, even if it’s just one vial of Sadness. He feels vulnerable. He knows if they stop him or the train, they’ll search everyone and give all of them a hard time.He just wants to get home without trouble. That’s all he’s ever wanted. To ignore the rest of the world, enjoy the Sadness [...]”

“And you taught me what this feels like.And then how it feels to lose it.And you showed me who I wanted.And then who I wasn’t.And you ticked every box.And then drew a line.And you weren’t mine to begin with.And then not to end with.And you looked like everything I wanted.And then became something I hated.And you get thought of every day.And then not in a good way.And you let me leave.And then wish I’d stayed.And you almost killed me.But I didn’t die.”

“You can try and hold me back. Build your damn walls, pack sandbags along the edges and yell at the clouds and the rain and the sky to stop. But i will not relent. I will reach you. Because i am the sea. And i will continue to love you no matter what.”

“I'm sorry. but you could never tell the difference between the mood you were in, and me.”

“May you do the things you want to and always remember what it felt like when you were doing them.”

“Booze makes you stupid and like it. It makes you fall around and not care. And eventually, stupid is the only way you know how to be. Cocaine makes you feel important, that life matters, that you matter. That the music is better than it really is. That every conversation is profound and that all pretenses have been stripped away. Ecstasy makes you dance all night and love your friends so much, in a way that you've never been able to tell them about before. Acid makes you see pretty colours and makes things breathe. But Sadness, there is nothing like Sadness.”