“I had done this. I had pulled my life apart. I would never, ever be safe again.”

“I sat there thinking this had to be the pits. I was afraid that I had become fed up with life, that I would never ever feel enthusiasm again.”

“If I had to do it over again, I would not have chosen this life. Then again, I'm not sure I ever had a choice.”

“Ellie, I would rather die than ever break your heart. I have never in my life felt like this. I would lay down my life for you if i had to. I love you baby”

“I was going to be so terrible at this… the worst he’d ever had probably. And then he’d never want to see me again (and I really wanted to see him again). I’d probably be traumatized and never want to have sex again, which meant every relationship for the rest of my life would fail, and I would end up alone and miserable with nine cats and a ferret.”

“But I had loved him. I loved him longer and truer than I had anyone in my whole life and I would probably never love anyone that way again. Which to be honest was almost a relief.”