“I feel quite lost INSIDE myself, like I'm looking for my train tracks for my life, as if they would just appear and solve the growing questions I seem to face (my reflection in the morning).”

“We are all carrying so many things in our life and inside ourselves. Often it feels there is no place to put them down. Where do you place the questions you carry”

“Mom and I were walking onteh beach and I was explaining to her how I wantd to "GET OVER all my INSECURITIES" and "La La... La..".... and she looked at me and said"Sabrina, does anyone realy feel good about themselves for MORE than 5 minutes?"We both laughed. I was releaved to know she felt that way becuae she seems SO graceful, calm and beautiful, which she is.. but also full of so much more. Auestions, doubts + WONDER.I think that if we can aim for just five minutes a day of complete acceptance of ourselves, we are doing very well!”

“MUCKYdrawingI AM FeeLingcompletelymucky today too.everyone at schoolseems so much tougher + pulled togetherand not so emotionally involved.I get so mad at MYSELF FOR'caring so deeply' AND'MAINTAINING' all this stuffin methat FEELS SO PATHectic.I want to put my tHINKingin HYBernation FOR A WHile.”

“Driving to class with him. All I couldthink about wasthat it had beenthree dayssince I'd touchedhis faceAND HESEEMEDso fine.I said, to him "you seem like you didn't miss a beat."He looked at meand saidSabrina, I've missedso many beats, I'veMADE A RhytHM.”

“TRYING TO FILL THE empty SPACEi don't knowif I willever understandthis Ache.Perhaps it issimpley and completelyLove andwhatHAPPENS.at the end.LossNovember 17, early morning”

“I sat on the bench outside of class today and talked to Jon. I read to him from my journal, it was the part about the accordian player I was watching on the street last weekend. He said that an accordian is such a perfect metaphor for Love, because you are always opening, and closing, shifting, and getting air, and that's how the music happens. True.”