“He says nothing, vehemently. I falter away and we sit, mutually staring into the fouled water. ...With time to kill, I ponder dismally the possible derivation of the zombie myth from people like my boyfriend. I picture Ralph blackened, semi-fingered, with bright bone peeking through his flesh. The odd small worm clings, festively wiggling. In my image, Ralph's really upset about decaying, and I feel for him sorrowfully. I want to tell him I would still love him, if he were decomposed. Of course in practice there is no predicting what I'd feel, and besides which, it's a wild associative leap.I ponder dismally how I've alienated people, all my life, with my bizarre associative leaps. ”

“Examining the actual contents of my crying, I found a quailing sludge emotion, with a foul insecticide taste. If it was a peanut, you would spit it out. Yet I was indulging this toxic goo, giving it its head and letting it dictate my actions. People had every good reason to despise me. ”

“God has created me to do Him some definite service. He has committed some work to me which He has not committed to another. I have my mission. I may never know it in this life, but I shall be told it in the next. I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons.He has not created me for naught. I shall do good; I shall do His work. I shall be an angel of peace, a preacher of truth in my own place, while not intending it if I do but keep His commandments.Therefore, I will trust Him, whatever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him, in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him. If I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. He does nothing in vain. He knows what He is about. He may take away my friends. He may throw me among strangers. He may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide my future from me. Still, He knows what He is about.”

“Then we all sat around; we were supposed to be awed. I was brattishly unawed.”

“That sense of the world being the lack of something dogged him for years, and when it stopped dogging him, he felt unmoored. ”

“I want my audiences to know that positive thinking has been a hallmark of my life, a pick yourself up and carry on attitude has powered me through my life, even at difficult times. I discuss these times with humor, humility and honesty with my audiences, I try to inspire people to find their own way. - Janice Newman, RScP”

“I want my client’s to know that they have my complete understanding, compassion and respect. I believe there can be no mis-takes in God and I assure clients that God is there for them and they have not been abandoned. I feel that God dwells within and is not an entity that is outside of ourselves. I feel there is absolutely a spiritual solution to every problem. I base my work on honesty, integrity, understanding and respect for the people I try to inspire. I utilize meditation and healing prayer to assist my clients. - Janice Newman, RScP”