“I knew disagreements were inevitable, though. It was finding a way through the disagreements that made a relationship work, or broke it apart completely.”

“And of course, the one that I really wanted to see, stayed completely hidden away from me and I let him even though it kind of killed me.”

“And really, a formal ceremony and a piecce of paper wasn't what made a marriage. It was the feeling bursting apart my chest-the overwhelming sensation that I'd been cleaved in two at birth, and, miraculously, I'd managed to find my other half. And even more miraculously, he felt the same.”

“I don’t want to hurt you, and if our roles were reversed, I couldn’t handle watching you with another man.”I gave him a sad smile as I whispered, “You already did.”Kellan’s mouth parted, and a wave of sadness swept over his features. It broke my heart.”

“ Don't. I understand. I knew going into this that a story about us was also going to be a story about the two of you. And it should be. He was a big part of your life, and I'm okay with your history. It made you who you are. And I happen to be in love with who you are.”

“Being apart from you is killing me. I feellost without you.”

“I hid this one in hopes that you would find it long after I'm gone. I hope you find this months from now, when I'm still out there, on the road, away from you. I can't imagine what the time apart has done to us. I'm hoping we're more in love than ever. I'm hoping that when I come back, you'll move in with me. In all honesty, I'm hoping that when I come back, you'll agree to marry me someday. Because that's what I want, what I dream about. You, mine, for the rest of my life. I hope you feel the same because I don't know what I would do without you. I love you so much. But, if for some reason we're not closer, if something has gotten between us, please, I'm begging you, don't give up on me. Stay. Stay with me. Work it out with me. Just don't leave me. Please.”