“This, then, is the ultimate paradox of thought: to want to discover something that thought itself cannot think.”

“The supreme paradox of all thought is the attempt to discover something that thought cannot think.”

“The thought is not something that observes an inner event, but, rather it is this inner event itself. We do not reflect on something, but, rather, something thinks itself in us. ”

“Having achieved what I thought was an ultimate ambition, I found, as I think is often the case, that there remained something more.”

“Did my moral upbrining somehow turn against itself? If looking at someone with desire was as bad as satisfying the desire, if having an active fantasy was as bad as the act you were fantasizing- then why not the satisfaction and the act itself? As the days went on, I discovered that I couldn't stop thinking sinful thoughts. In which case I also wanted the sin itself.”

“Part of avoiding thoughts about something was not encouraging opportunities for that something to makes itself felt.”