“I felt horribly obvious. I wished I were invisible to myself- that I could see the illusion so that I could trust it”

“I couldn’t get the words exactly right; I only remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother so that we could love each other without any confusion or pain.”

“I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that i didn't want you anymore. The mos t absurd ridiculous concept as if there were any way I could exist without needing you.”

“Do you remember when you told me I couldn't see myself clearly? You obviously have the same blindness”

“I felt like I was staring out across an ocean that I was going to have to swim from shore to shore before I could rest again.”

“I lied, and I'm so sorry—sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that I couldn't protect you from what I am. I lied to save you, and it didn't work. I'm sorry.But how could you believe me? After all the thousand times I've told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?”I didn't answer. I was too shocked to form a rational response.“I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn't want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!”

“After all the thousand times I’ve told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?...I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!”