“I want to be able to be alone, to find it nourishing - not just a waiting.”

“Dissimulation, secretiveness, appear a necessity to the melancholic. He has complex, often veiled relations with others. These feelings of superiority, of inadequacy, of baffled feeling, of not being able to get what one wants, or even name it properly (or consistently) to oneself — these can be, it is felt they ought to be, masked by friendliness, or the most scrupulous manipulation.”

“I discovered that I am tired of being a person. Not just tired of being the person I was, but any person at all”

“Mad people = People who stand alone and burn.I'm attracted to them because they give me permission to do the same.”

“What I really wanted was every kind of life, and the writer’s life seemed the most inclusive.”

“It's so effortless to let my loneliness defeat me, make me mold myself to whatever would (in some way - but not wholly) relieve it. I must never forget it... I want sensuality and sensitivity, both... Let me never deny that... I want to err on the side of violence and excess, rather than to underfill my moments.”

“I don't want to express alienation. It isn't what I feel. I'm interested in various kinds of passionate engagement. All my work says be serious, be passionate, wake up.”