“I really wanted something, giving myself permission to screw up wasn't an option”
“I need to give up the OPTION of ever having what I want”
“I didn't want him to think I was giving up - I wasn't. I simply couldn't put myself together just yet.”
“Conflict of interest. I wanted to date somebody who was less screwed up than me, and she wasn't.”
“The way to screw up somebody's life is to give them what they want.”
“I want to explain everything to him, show him that it’s really not as screwed up as it all sounds, but then I remember that it is.”