“He understood it to be another deep nudge from forces unseen, almost surely connected with the letter that had come along with his latest mental-disability check, reminding him that unless he did something publicly crazy before a date now less than a week away, he would no longer qualify for benefits.”

Thomas Pynchon

Thomas Pynchon - “He understood it to be another deep...” 1

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