“I was insanely jealous of Lucille. More jealous than I'd ever been of anyone in my entire life. Because she truly meant it. All I could think was, why can't I be as stupid as Lucille? Why can't I blame all my successes and all my failures on The Lord Jesus Christ Almighty? I would be so fucking happy if I lived like that. ”

“It was the first time I'd ever felt truly jealous of anyone else in my entire life.”

“I remember. All of it. And it hurts. More than I'd ever thought possible.I know where I am and what I've done and why I can't move or speak or open my eyes. And I'm scared.It was all a terrible mistake.I'd like not to be here. I'd like to go home now.Please.Please”

“I was insanely jealous.""I know. It should make me happy, but it doesn't.""Why ?""I'd rather make you happy, Caleb. I'd rather see you smile.”

“Christ is in me...Christ is my life, this is why i live the higher life...and the reason why i am more than a conqueror!”

“It;s all gone. My life is all gone and I can't work out why. I keep looking back over my life...and I can't work out where it all went so wrong. What I did to make this happen.”