“I felt deeply tricked. Stunned. And furious. I also felt my default emotion: numbness.”
“He disliked emotion, not because he felt lightly, but because he felt deeply.”
“We cannot selectively numb emotions, when we numb the painful emotions, we also numb the positive emotions.”
“It cost me my identity. Being molested created such sexual and emotional confusion that I was an old man before I was fifteen and still a boy at thirty. I felt numb and removed, like I was not there, just a piece of property for others to use and discard.”
“And I never felt that good in my life. But I also felt bad because I saw her naked without her permission.”
“I am prone to envy. It is one of my three default emotions, the others being greed and rage. I have also experienced compassion and generosity, but only fleetingly and usually while drunk, so I have little memory.”