“I looked down at the reaper's blood on my hands, and I felt very sad.”

“Temporarily.' I say, looking at the blood on my hands. The blood of princess Snow White — I must be the worst person in the world.”

“Looking down on it from the helicopter, with a bottle of Jack in my left hand, a bag of pills in my right hand, and a blond head bobbing up and doen in my lap, I felt like the king of the world.”

“I stood looking down out of the window. The street seemed miles down. Suddenly I felt as if I'd flung myself out of the window. I could see myself lying on the pavement. Then I seemed to be standing by the body on the pavement. I was two people. Blood and brains were scattered everywhere. I knelt down and began licking up the blood and brains”

“I was never interested in what everybody else was interested in. I was very interiorized. I always felt kind of sad.”

“i felt ashamed. i stared down at the ground and stood very still and very quietly.”