“I am aware that what the body does for loveis sometimes not. I celebrate reversals. I watch a funeral somewhere at sea. ”
“I am aware that I am aware”
“…I wonder what actually this hospital is, why I am in it and who I am. I have no time to find out. I die, with my arms stretched towards the spotlights.Then whiteness.My body is still there somewhere…Buried in the extremely bright lights of empty hope.”
“Sometimes, I think Bill forgets that I am sixteen. But I am very happy that he does.”
“I hadn't understood funeral pyres before, but now I do. It's ghastly to burn someone you love but watching the smoke going into the sky, I think that's rather beautiful now. And I wish Tess could be up in the sky. Somewhere with color and light and air.”
“I never do anything I don't want to do. Nor does anyone, but in my case I am always aware of it.”