“Kaevin, it’s you, it has always been you. With Raeshon, things are easy, and I have to admit that was refreshing but I don’t have the same feelings for him that I have for you. It’s harder to be with you because I feel more for you. I care about you so much that it scares me, Kaevin.”

“It won’t kill you, or him,” Raeshon replied, his voice slightly louder than usual. “It’s nothing physical.”“Physical I can handle,” Kaevin rasped in pain. “But this, this I don’t think I can.”Kath gasped as another wave of pain wracked through her heart and she fell onto her side.“It didn't know it would be this bad,” Raeshon said quietly, his posture tense. “I really didn't.”“I think you did,” Kaevin ground out. “And I think you didn't care.”

“I know you love me, Jocelyn, because there’s no fucking way I can be this much in love with you, and not have you feel the same way. It’s not possible.”

“It’s killing me, baby,” he says, his voice much more calm and quiet. “It’s killing me because I don’t want you to go another day without knowing how I feel about you. And I’m not ready to tell you I’m in love with you, because I’m not. Not yet. But whatever this is I’m feeling—it’s so much more than just like. It’s so much more. And for the past few weeks I’ve been trying to figure it out. I’ve been trying to figure out why there isn’t some other word to describe it. I want to tell you exactly how I feel but there isn’t a single goddamned word in the entire dictionary that can describe this point between liking you and loving you, but I need that word. I need it because I need you to hear me say it.”

“But then you ... you come along. You screwed up my plan. Suddenly my life’s not liveable, it’s not fine and I’m no longer happy. My life’s worse, much more worse than before ... and it’s all because of you. I’m scared of you. I run from you. And I push you away ... but why? Because I am scared of you, I’m scared of my feelings for you ... I’m scared of losing you. But mostly ... mostly I’m scared that if I don’t hold on too tight ... I’m scared that I’ll lose you forever.”

“I thought part of the idea of having therapy was putting one in touch with his or her feelings. And don’t give me all that about transference, and counter-transference and all that. I know what I feel. And it has nothing to do with all that. And you also feel for me. And if you don’t know that, then maybe it’s you who needs to have therapy to gain a better knowledge of yourself.”