Albert Camus

“I don’t know what to do today, help me decide. Should I cut myself open and pour my heart on these pages? Or should I sit here and do nothing, nobody’s asking anything of me after all?Should I jump off the cliff that has my heart beating so and develop my wings on the way down? Or should I step back from the edge, and let the others deal with this thing called courage?Should I stare back at the existential abyss that haunts me so and try desperately to grab from it a sense of self? Or should I keep walking half-asleep, only half-looking at it every now and then in times in which I can’t help doing anything but?Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee?”

“Ni siquiera tenía la certeza de estar vivo porque vivía como un muerto”

“Es que nunca tengo gran cosa que decir. Entonces me callo”

“Después de otro momento de silencio, musitó que yo era raro, que sin duda ella me quería por eso, pero tal vez un día yo le repugnaría por las mismas razones.”

“De todos modos, uno es siempre un poco culpable”

“You see, Mersualt, all the misery and cruelty of our civilisation can be measured by this one stupid axiom: happy nations have no history.”

“If I convince myself that this life has no other aspect than that of the absurd, if I feel that its whole equilibrium depends on that perpetual opposition between my conscious revolt and the darkness in which it struggles, if I admit that my freedom has no meaning except in relation to its limited fate, then I must say that what counts is not the best living but the most living.”

“Knowing whether or not man is free involves knowing whether he can have a master. The absurdity peculiar to this problem comes from the fact that the very notion that makes the problem of freedom possible also takes away all its meaning. For in the presence of God there is less a problem of freedom than a problem of evil. You know the alternative: either we are not free and God the all-powerful is responsible for evil. Or we are free and responsible but God is not all powerful. All the scholastic subtleties have neither added anything to nor subtracted anything from the acuteness of this paradox.”

“Only the one who does not know what is life may believe that it is beautiful and easy.”

“You do not have to unburden your soul for everyone; it will be enough if you do that for those you love.”

“A practical rule: a man which is wise in one area may be silly in others.”

“You will always win if you make an effort, no matter how much. However, if you failed it means you were too lazy.”

“Person describes himself throughout life. To know oneself perfectly means to die.”

“Happiness is often only a pity for one's own misfortune.”

“The feeling that we are all neglected and lonely but not so lonely that "others" do not see us in trouble, saves us from the worst suffering.”

“When I was young, I expected from people more than they could give: neverending friendship and constant excitement.Now I expect less than they can actually can give: to stay close silently. And their feelings, friendship, noble deeds always seem like a miracle to me: a true grace.”

“It is almost impossible to watch a clockwise direction - it gets extremely boring and causes despair.”

“Time flies so fast because it does not have any guidance. Like the moon in its zenith or the horizon.”

“No doubt our love was still there, but quite simply it was unusable, heavy to carry, inert inside of us, sterile as crime or condemnation. It was no longer anything except a patience with no future and a stubborn wait.”

“Ce monde en lui-même n’est pas raisonnable, c’est tout ce qu’on peut en dire. Mais ce qui est absurde, c’est la confrontation de cet irrationnel et de ce désir éperdu de clarté dont l’appel résonne au plus profond de l’homme. »”

“C’était une femme originale et solitaire. Elle entretenait un commerce étroit avec les esprits, épousait leurs querelles et refusait de voir certaines personnes de sa famille mal considérées dans le monde où elle se réfugiait.Un petit héritage lui échut qui venait de sa soeur. Ces cinq mille francs, arrivés à la fin d’une vie, se révélèrent assez encombrants. Il fallait les placer. Si presque tous les hommes sont capables de se servir d’une grosse fortune, la difficulté commence quand la somme est petite. Cette femme resta fidèle à elle-même. Près de la mort, elle voulut abriter ses vieux os. Une véritable occasion s’offrait à elle. Au cimetière de sa ville, une concession venait d’expirer et, sur ce terrain, les propriétaires avaient érigé un somptueux caveau, sobre de lignes, en marbre noir, un vrai trésor à tout dire, qu’on lui laissait pourla somme de quatre mille francs. Elle acheta ce caveau. C’était là une valeur sûre, à l’abri des fluctuations boursières et des événements politiques. Elle fit aménager la fosse intérieure, la tint prête à recevoir son propre corps. Et, tout achevé, elle fit graver son nom en capitales d’or.Cette affaire la contenta si profondément qu’elle fut prise d’un véritable amour pour son tombeau. Elle venait voir au début les progrès des travaux Elle finit par se rendre visite tous les dimanches après-midi. Ce fut son unique sortie et sa seule distraction. Vers deux heures de l’après-midi, elle faisait le long trajet qui l’amenait aux portes de la ville où se trouvait le cimetière. Elle entrait dans le petit caveau, refermait soigneusement la porte, et s’agenouillait sur le prie-Dieu. C’est ainsi que, mise en présence d’elle-même, confrontant ce qu’elle était et ce qu’elle devait être, retrouvant l’anneau d’une chaîne toujours rompue, elle perça sans effort les desseins secrets de la Providence. Par un singulier symbole, elle comprit même un jour qu’elle était morte aux yeux du monde. À la Toussaint, arrivée plus tard que d’habitude, elle trouva le pas de la porte pieusement jonché de violettes. Par une délicate attention, des inconnus compatissants devant cette tombe laissée sans fleurs, avaient partagé les leurs et honoré la mémoire de ce mort abandonné à lui-même.”

“Ce silence intérieur qui m’accompagne, il naît de la course lente qui mène la journée à cette autre journée.”

“J’admire qu’on puisse trouver au bord de la Méditerranée des certitudes et des règles de vie, qu’on y satisfasse sa raison et qu’on y justifie un optimisme et un sens social. Car enfin, ce qui me frappait alors ce n’était pas un monde fait à la mesure de l’homme - mais qui se refer-mait sur l’homme. Non, si le langage de ces pays s’accordait à ce qui résonnait profondément en moi, ce n’est pas parce qu’il répondait à mes questions, mais parce qu’il les rendait inutiles. Ce n’était pas des actions de grâces qui pouvaient me monter aux lèvres, mais ce Nada qui n’a pu naître que devant des paysages écrasés de soleil. Il n’y a pas d’amour de vivre sans désespoir de vivre.”

“Mais à cette heure, où suis-je ? Et comment séparer ce café désert de cette chambre du passé. Je ne sais plus si je vis ou si je me souviens. Les lumières des phares sont là. Et l’Arabe qui se dresse devant moi me dit qu’il va fermer. Il faut sortir. Je ne veux plus descendre cette pente si dangereuse. Il est vrai que je regarde une dernière fois la baie et ses lumières, que ce qui monte alors vers moi n’est pas l’espoir de jours meilleurs, mais une indifférence sereine et primitive à tout et à moi-même. Mais il faut briser cette courbe trop molle et trop facile. Et j’ai besoin de ma lucidité. Oui, tout est simple. Ce sont les hommes qui compliquent les choses. Qu’on ne nous raconte pas d’histoires. Qu’on ne nous dise pas du condamné à mort : « Il va payer sa dette à la société », mais : « On va lui couper le cou. » Ça n’a l’air de rien. Mais ça fait une petite différence. Et puis, il y a des gens qui préfèrent regarder leur destin dans les yeux.”

“À un certain degré de dénuement, plus rien ne conduit à plus rien, ni l’espoir ni le désespoir ne paraissent fondés, et la vie tout entière se résume dans une image.”

“Personne dans la salle, les bruits de la ville en contrebas, plus loin des lumières sur la baie. J’entends l’Arabe respirer très fort, et ses yeux brillent dans la pénombre. Au loin, est-ce le bruit de la mer ? le monde soupire vers moi dans un rythme long et m’apporte l’indifférence et la tranquillité de ce qui ne meurt pas.”

“On m’a dit un jour : « C’est si difficile de vivre. » Et je me souviens du ton. Une autre fois, quelqu’un a murmuré : « La pire erreur, c’est encore de faire souffrir. » Quand tout est fini, la soif de vie est éteinte. Est-ce là ce qu’on appelle le bonheur ? En longeant ces souvenirs, nous revêtons tout du même vêtement discret et la mort nous apparaît comme une toile de fond aux tons vieillis. Nous revenons sur nous-mêmes. Nous sentons notre détresse et nous en aimons mieux. Oui, c’est peut-être cela le bonheur, le sentiment apitoyé de notre malheur.”

“On se fait des maximes pour combler les trous de notre propre nature.”

“I'm the only true artist Rome has known - the only one, believe me - to match his inspiration with his deeds.CHEREA: That's only a matter of having the power.CALIGULA: Quite true. Other artists create to compensate for their lack of power. I don't need to make a work of art; I live it.”

“But - I cannot make a choice. I have my own sorrow, but I suffer with him, too; I share his pain. I understand all - that is my trouble.”

“The light outside seemed to be surging up against the window seeping through, and smearing the faces of the people facing it with a coat of yellow oil.”

“What is a rebel? Someone who says no. But saying no does not mean giving up: it also means saying yes, with every gesture.”

“Indeed, a climate of fear is not one that encourages reflection. However, it is my belief that, instead of using that fear as an excuse, we should recognize it as one of the prime causes of the current situation and try to find a remedy for it.”

“At a certain level of suffering or injustice no one can do anything for anyone. Pain is solitary.”

“When millions of people are starving, everyone is implicated.”

“Talking of politics, I would like to reiterate that Arabs are people. By that I mean they are not merely an anonymous mass of peasants with nothing worth fighting for, as the Western world sees them. On the contrary, they are people with great traditions and the highest values, for all our reluctance to assess them impartially.”

“The Byronic hero, incapable of love, or capable only of an impossible love, suffers endlessly. He is solitary, languid, his condition exhausts him. If he wants to feel alive, it must be in the terrible exaltation of a brief and destructive action.”

“After a short silence the doctor raised himself a little in his chair and asked if Tarrou had an idea of the path to follow for attaining peace."Yes, he replied. "The path of sympathy.”

“All I can say is that on this earth there are pestilences and there are victims– and as far as possible one must refuse to be on the side of the pestilence.”

“Thus and thus only the Christian could face the problem squarely and, scorning subterfuge, pierce to the heart of the supreme issues, the essential choice. And his choice would be to believe everything, so as not be forced into denying everything.”

“Well, personally, I've seen enough of people who die for an idea. I don't believe in heroism; I know it's easy and I've learned that it can be murderous. What interests me is living and dying for what one loves.”

“Thus each of us had to be content to live only for the day, alone under the vast indifference of the sky.”

“There have been as many plagues as wars in history; yet always plagues and wars take people equally by surprise.”

“For ever, I shall be a stranger to myself.”

“How far is one to go to elude nothing? Is one to die voluntarily or to hope in spite of everything?”

“Of whom and of what can I say: "I know that"! This heart within me I can feel, and I judge that it exists. This world I can touch, and I likewise judge that it exists. There ends all my knowledge, and the rest is construction. For if I try to seize this self of which I feel sure, if I try to define and to summarize it, it is nothing but water slipping through my fingers. I can sketch one by one all the aspects it is able to assume, all those likewise that have been attributed to it, this upbringing, this origin, this ardor or these silences, this nobility or this vileness. But aspects cannot be added up. This very heart which is mine will forever remain indefinable to me. Between the certainty I have of my existence and the content I try to give to that assurance the gap will never be filled.”

“We must live and let live in order to create what we are.”

“A cripple, likewise, an accomplice and noisy, have I not shouted among the stones? Consequently, I strive to forget, I walk in our cities of iron and fire, I smile bravely at the night, I hail the storms, I shall be faithful. I have forgotten, in truth: active and deaf, henceforth. But perhaps someday, when we are ready to die of exhaustion and ignorance, I shall be able to disown our garish tombs and go and stretch out in the valley, under the same light, and learn for the last time what I know.”

“When one has once had the good luck to love intensely, life is spent in trying to recapture that ardor and that illumination. Forsakingbeauty and the sensual happiness attached to it, exclusively servingmisfortune, calls for a nobility I lack. But, after all, nothing is true that forces one to exclude.”

“Heaven and earth. Our reason has driven all away. Alone at last, we end up by ruling over a desert. What imagination could we have left for that higher equilibrium in which nature balanced history, beauty, virtue, and which applied the music of numbers even to blood-tragedy? We turn our backs on nature; we are ashamed of beauty. Our wretched tragedies have a smell of theoffice clinging to them, and the blood that trickles from them is the color of printer’s ink.”